To Know How to Suffer
IF AT any time a deep sorrow, a searing doubt or an intense
pain overwhelms you and drives you to despair, there is an
infallible way to regain calm and peace.
In the depths of our being there shines a light whose
brilliance is equalled only by its purity; a light, a living and
conscious portion of a universal godhead who animates and
nourishes and illumines Matter, a powerful and unfailing
guide for those who are willing to heed his law, a helper
full of solace and loving forbearance towards all who aspire
to see and hear and obey him. No sincere and lasting
aspiration towards him can be in vain; no strong and respectful
trust can be disappointed, no expectation ever deceived.
My heart has suffered and lamented, almost breaking beneath
a sorrow too heavy, almost sinking beneath a pain too
strong…. But I have called to thee, O divine comforter, I have
prayed ardently to thee, and the splendour of thy dazzling light
has appeared to me and revived me.
As the rays of thy glory penetrated and illumined all my
being, I clearly perceived the path to follow, the use that can be
made of suffering; I understood that the sorrow that held me in
its grip was but a pale reflection of the sorrow of the earth, of
this abysm of suffering and anguish.
Only those who have suffered can understand the suffering
of others; understand it, commune with it and relieve it. And
I understood, O divine comforter, sublime Holocaust, that in
order to sustain us in all our troubles, to soothe all our pangs,
thou must have known and felt all the sufferings of earth and
man, all without exception.
How is it that among those who claim to be thy worshippers,
some regard thee as a cruel torturer, as an inexorable judge
To Know How to Suffer
witnessing the torments that are tolerated by thee or even created
by thy own will?
No, I now perceive that these sufferings come from the very
imperfection of Matter which, in its disorder and crudeness, is
unfit to manifest thee; and thou art the very first to suffer from
it, to bewail it, thou art the first to toil and strive in thy ardent
desire to change disorder into order, suffering into happiness,
discord into harmony.
Suffering is not something inevitable or even desirable, but
when it comes to us, how helpful it can be!
Each time we feel that our heart is breaking, a deeper door
opens within us, revealing new horizons, ever richer in hidden
treasures, whose golden influx brings once more a new and
intenser life to the organism on the brink of destruction.
And when, by these successive descents, we reach the veil
that reveals thee as it is lifted, O Lord, who can describe the
intensity of Life that penetrates the whole being, the radiance of
the Light that floods it, the sublimity of the Love that transforms
it for ever!
COLLECTED WORKS OF THE MOTHER P 20-21